Pushing myself

I received a telephone call from the realtor to see if they can show the apartment tomorrow evening.

I took a look around the apartment examining the state of disarray it was in and of course I said "sure", immediately chiding myself because there is no way in hell I would have the living room put together by tomorrow.

However, if I don't continue moving forward, I will just sit still so I have to place myself in the position of do or die.

I am my own worst enemy.